Today a little closer to understanding that God always loves me, even when I fall. No matter what. That seems unimaginable. All He asks is for my belief and acceptance. I am not sure why that is such a hard thing.To believe that even when I slip, fall or fail, He cares about me understanding that He still loves me. I just did not think love like that exist. I am not sure what it is I am supposed to do today, but I just hope it is what God wants. I don't think there is anything harder I have ever had to encounter or to do in my life than to break my human spirit. To break this will of mine, to battle myself, every last dying breath seems only to bring about a new and stronger person to fight with the next day. Every time I think I am down for the count, I get back up again... if I could only listen to the guy in the corner telling me to stay down this time.....stay down....don't get back up. I can only believe that at some point God will break me completely and this soul will begin to work in unison with HIM as He made it too! My mom told me Saturday night that I was the most independent, had to do everything myself, stubborn child. I am glad to know Jesus has already won this battle, and I am glad to know that today God still loves us and is out ahead fighting for us already!
taken from "On the High Road to Surrender"
Out of every disappointment there is to be gleamed some treasure. The enemy would whisper "all is lost." I say to you,much can be gained.
Refuse the temptation to brood over what is gone. It has passed into the area of MY sovereignty. The PRESENT challenge requires your undivided attention.
Give no time to dark thoughts. Depression undermines the vigor of the soul.
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